"APATHY"

NUMB..

Maybe something that's been on my mind lately.

Can you imagine not feeling the pain?

I wish I could fly up in the sky and hide in those thick cottony clouds. For maybe even for just once i could be free from my endless thoughts. I could be able to not to worry about the people i've hurt or already been hurt. For all my wrong doings.

I really want to be numb. So i wouldn't be able to expect much. So i wouldn't be able to feel disappointments.. Not to feel being rejected. I want to feel numb so i would have a reason not to think about the feelings of others that coul've ' been hurt or been hurt by me. I would like to feel numb so i could have a reason not to think about what he has on his mind. To have a reason for him not to be angry.

Apathetic you say?
Selfish am i?
Unreasonable correct?

The throbbing pain i feel. That cuts deep within my heart. With his every word the cut is deepened.
I just couldn't find reason, the enough reason for all my doings.

Apathy is what i've felt.
I really don't know.
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