silly me..

Well, for starters this is like any other day when I am connected to the internet. Being a couch potato. My butt glued in a chair, fingers on the mouse and keyboard, and my eyes on the monitor of my net book. You see, I'm this kind of a lazy person with no drive to do things I want. I don't even know why.

I have this feeling of being uninspired. Or it's just that I have this very messy things goin' around inside my head, or my heart. I really don't know.

I want to do things the way they're supposed to be. I even know the things that supposed to be done, but somehow I can't make myself to do it.

I think it would be funny. Or maybe I'm just being silly as I always am. They keep saying I'm supposed to grow up. That I'm too childish for my age. Maybe I am...

Maybe. Am I really? They tell me the same things. So maybe I am?...

I really hope I'm not. 

LOST

I feel so lost right now. I'm too lazy to get things done. I know I should be keeping up with my life but somehow I don't feel like doing anything. I feel so stuffed inside. Like how am I supposed to do this? I wanted to do something but what I don't understand is that I'm not doing anything. I have my plans. I have something to look  forward to but still I can't, I mean I won't do anything about it. It sucks living my life like this. Whining and not doing anything. But I just can't make myself to. I want to but I wont. What's really wrong with me? I know what I should do but still... I'm still here. Never going forward. And I hate that part of me. It really sucks! I feel so empty inside and I don't know why. The things I need to do is clear but why am I this way?..

My friends says I need to grow up and do things my own but I'm too lazy to do so. Can anybody tell me what I should do? Please? 

REAL STEEL

It was a GREAT movie. It excited me. Made my heart pound with excitement. My heart fluttered with emotions that the Charlie (Hugh Jackman) and his son Max could have shown the viewers. It made me clap with joy inside the cinema. Though, thinking about it, it was kinda embarrassing.:p But it's a 10 for me! It was so good that I would like to watch it again..:D

The Best friend I never knew..

would  be considered funny if your least expected person would call you his BEST FRIEND just to please someone who's special to me?

Honestly, it's kind of unbelievable to me!

Worth Smiling..

Today would be just an ordinary day for me. Just like any other day. I woke up late at about 11am. Ate my brunch. Bummed myself in our sofa and while watching another Korean drama. Later in the afternoon, i got up and made my very own kimbap, after watching the lead eating one. Then my aunt told me it was okay :D

Then my sweetie, Shienna came. We had our endless chat and ate as usual..:p

Then what made me really smile was this certain "Frog Prince" and I, for the first time had this long chat conversation. This was the first after a long time. Again. It made me smile. Time really can heal. We can be friends like we were before. Having a conversation comfortably.

Just thinking about it, makes me flutter. I can't help but smile :) I this one's worth a smile. Really.

Something to look back..

I came across this blog of mine a few days ago.  I wondered if this blog still works, or if I still remember my password. Well, it still does, and I do remember my password! For the past days I didn't wrote anything, because i was so drawn designing this blog for my liking. Well, as for now, I like it. :p My last post was the time I thought everything would be alright. My posts in this blog was to pour my anguish, pain, hurt, disappointment. Well, i wrote alright. hahahaha.. I'm not bragging or anything. :p Anyways, this one's another start right?

Its been a month since I came back here in Cabanatuan. And I feel like I'm home. We'll, this really is home.
I missed my bed, my house, my brother, my friends. :) After a year in Iloilo, I'm back again. After starting anew, I'm back being a new me. (so I hope!) I'm now 22 years old, and I hope somethings inside me changed. Like being more mature, and more responsible, and less lazy.

Well, for my relationship with the opposite sex, well, I just don't know. Que Sera Sera. Whatever will be will be. :)