silly me..

Well, for starters this is like any other day when I am connected to the internet. Being a couch potato. My butt glued in a chair, fingers on the mouse and keyboard, and my eyes on the monitor of my net book. You see, I'm this kind of a lazy person with no drive to do things I want. I don't even know why.

I have this feeling of being uninspired. Or it's just that I have this very messy things goin' around inside my head, or my heart. I really don't know.

I want to do things the way they're supposed to be. I even know the things that supposed to be done, but somehow I can't make myself to do it.

I think it would be funny. Or maybe I'm just being silly as I always am. They keep saying I'm supposed to grow up. That I'm too childish for my age. Maybe I am...

Maybe. Am I really? They tell me the same things. So maybe I am?...

I really hope I'm not. 

LOST

I feel so lost right now. I'm too lazy to get things done. I know I should be keeping up with my life but somehow I don't feel like doing anything. I feel so stuffed inside. Like how am I supposed to do this? I wanted to do something but what I don't understand is that I'm not doing anything. I have my plans. I have something to look  forward to but still I can't, I mean I won't do anything about it. It sucks living my life like this. Whining and not doing anything. But I just can't make myself to. I want to but I wont. What's really wrong with me? I know what I should do but still... I'm still here. Never going forward. And I hate that part of me. It really sucks! I feel so empty inside and I don't know why. The things I need to do is clear but why am I this way?..

My friends says I need to grow up and do things my own but I'm too lazy to do so. Can anybody tell me what I should do? Please?